I almost didn't have church choir tonight. I was tired after a late night of election results and an early morning of work. All I wanted to do was go home, take a nap, and then veg in front of the TV. My heart wasn't in it. I knew there would only be a couple people in attendance, that our anthem this week is fairly simple and we'd sung it a dozen times before. I almost sent the last minute cancellation e-mail several times throughout the day.
Then I heard about what happened at Maple Grove HS today and I felt despair and deep hurt. It was then that I realized I couldn't be alone. I needed to be with people who embody love. People I care about. People who care about me. In a safe place, making music.
As we sang the final verse and chorus of our anthem for this Sunday (which I picked months ago), I stopped and truly registered the lyrics we were singing and my heart became full:
"God is calling me, God is calling me
in all whose cry is unheard.
God is calling me, God is calling me
to raise up the voice with no power or choice:
God is calling me, calling me:
And to tell the world that God's kingdom is near,
to remove oppression and break down fear,
yes, God's time is near. God's time is near,
God's time is near, God's time is near."
Choose love. Oppose fear. Speak for those who have no voice. This is what we are called to do.